From Frozen Years to Golden Years: Leaving Alaska {Part 2}

If you missed the first part of our leaving Alaska moving story, go read it here first: From Frozen Years to Golden Years: Leaving Alaska {Part 1}.

From Frozen Years to Golden Years: Leaving Alaska {Part 2}

We had some rough days and prayed a lot. Tensions were high. We almost got hit by two different cars in two different incidents that were way too close not to ponder. I was driving to the grocery store to pick up some extra packing tape for the boxes and I was praying the whole way.

Above, a photo of a poster I had hanging in my office in Alaska.  It’s a replica of the poster Fox Mulder had hanging in his office in the television show The X Files.  The poster shows a UFO and says, “I Want to Believe”.
I asked God why things all seemed to be going wrong. I asked Him if we were really going to lose everything. I told Him that I trusted Him, but couldn’t see how any of this was going to work out because every part of our situation was broken. I prayed for an answer of where we were moving to. Where were we going? Was there going to be a job for my husband to go to? Would our house sell or go into foreclosure? Nothing which had seemed right had worked out so far. I questioned where things were headed with my family and my life.
And lastly, I asked God why both of those accidents which surely would have totaled our car and taken our lives happened and were prevented by Him in such close proximity to each other. Why did they happen and why now?
I felt low, helpless, and out of control, but I still waited on God’s time. I think He knows those moments when we feel anguish from every direction and need to hear Him.

I Want to Believe

I was still praying the final words of my prayer and pulling into the parking lot, when I got a strong feeling to change the radio station. I always listen to one of two Christian stations, KLove and Air1, so turning it to a non-Christian station was unusual for me. But I was obedient and changed the channel, and a song started right away called “Golden Years” by David Bowie. I parked and listened intently and knew immediately that this was not just a chance song on the radio. This was God answering me in the supernatural way that only He can!
The words:

Golden years, golden years
Don’t let me hear you say life’s taking you nowhere, angel
Come get up my baby
Look at that sky, life’s begun
Nights are warm and the days are young
Come get up my baby
There’s my baby, lost that’s all
Once I’m begging you save her little soul
Golden years, golden years
Come get up my baby
Last night they loved you, opening doors and pulling some strings, angel
Come get up my baby
In walked luck and you looked in time
Never look back, walk tall, act fine
Come get up my baby
I’ll stick with you baby for a thousand years
Nothing’s gonna touch you in these golden years, gold

Just when I realized that all the lyrics to the song were God answering my very questions from this prayer, I was so amazed and instantly felt tears on my cheeks. The next line was:

Don’t cry my sweet, don’t break my heart

That gave all new meaning to the phrase God’s timing is perfect! He even knew the exact second it would make me cry.

Doing all right, but you gotta get smart
Wish upon, wish upon, day upon day, I believe oh Lord
I believe all the way
Come get up my baby
I’ll stick with you baby for a thousand years
Nothing’s gonna touch you in these golden years, gold

I realized that while I said I had patience on God, I wasn’t showing it.  While I said I believed He was in control, my worry didn’t show that I believed “all the way”.  The words in the song “I believe all the way” made me feel so foolish for not having the complete trust in God’s plans that I thought I had!
Even more than that, God had answered my questions about what was going to happen.  “Nothing’s gonna touch you in these golden years,” He said.  Then, it all came true.
Stay tuned for part 3 of From Frozen Years to Golden Years: Leaving Alaska.